Labor Day

Yesterday, as I was talking to one of my best friends, I was telling her about my recent dreams. They all, in their own way, had to do with me being trapped or stuck. Silenced.

(There was one where my mom and I were trapped in R. Kelly’s house…remind me to tell you about that one. In short, I kicked his ass—and found out he’s a eunuch.)

The issue with those dreams, I told my friend, is that I don’t “feel” trapped or stuck. I don’t feel constrained, so it’s confusing.

Writer’s note: I suppose now’s a good time to tell you that God, my creator, the universe, speaks to me through dreams. I think it’s because that’s the only time I’m completely still. It’s been proven many times over. That’s my spiritual gift. It’s equally terrifying and exciting.

Anyway, I asked my friend to pray for me (and you better do it), and told her that I’ve been praying for an explanation…clarity. I also told her that I often tell God to make it clear because I can be slow or question the message I’m receiving.

Who knew that it would come through an app?

This Pattern app is so spot on sometimes it’s scary.

Just this morning, I wondered what it meant that when I don’t have to work I can wake up with no issue, but lately, when I do have to work, I sleep in (which has never been me). 

Then, when I prayed, I asked my creator to let today be quiet and peaceful. 

I thought about re-examining my passions and my contribution to the world—ways in which I can do better. 

I watched “The Last Word” with Shirley MacLaine and Amanda Seyfried, and although the dealings with the “Black intern from the projects” had its cringey moments, I gained inspiration.

I also finally made the decision to go back to short hair. Longer hair is fun, but I miss my carefree curls and it better suits my personality. As my granny, who would be 91 tomorrow would say, it made me look “like a million bucks.” 

This was all before reading what Pattern had in store for me today. I swear I should be Catholic, because I’ve always believed in signs and this was a big one.

I’ve been asked what I plan to do this weekend, this glorious, 5-day weekend, and I finally have an answer—intention setting. 

And by God, I will grab my scissors and cut my own hair if I have to. 

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